Random things. Sorry.
- Sometimes I think about what is happening to my life. Why did I not march last October or why did I allow myself to get delayed for a year. I have promised myself and my friends that I have moved on about this fact, that I accepted already my position in this world but sometimes, when life gets hard on me, I can’t help but think of these things. I am a complete bum. I have nothing to do but thesis. Thesis can be done in 2-3 weeks? But I am given three long months of agony. It is difficult dealing with new people especially when I know that it will end soon.
- Sometimes too, I get too shy to admit that I am a year delayed. I think I was too proud of myself back then and afterwards, I am stuck for a year in college.
- I always say that I should not regret about things that had happened but then, I can’t help it especially when I know that I could achieve better than this.
- I may be enjoying the freedom that comes with this bum life but I am not enjoying the everyday presence of pressure with a freebie we call stress.
- As I am reading my facebook feed, I noticed that there are already happenings in my friends’ life in which I turned down. Graduation parties, birthday parties, despedidas, random hangouts and other get-togethers where I chose to be selfish and not go because of reasons I know does not exist. Recalling my learnings while I was reading the book of Acts (or was it Romans?), I chose this life. I chose to get off the people who, I think, could not help me bring myself closer to God. Selfish, yes, because it was my choice, but hey, I think it is kinda cool too because I got to discover other people. Recently, I just kinda took step 1 in getting back to those people I left off. I hope it will be successful and do step 2 soon.
- My number 1 pet peeve in life is when someone does not say the truth. Just recently, I knew that there were no prior plans on this certain date and that a new plan was accommodated. Weeks before, I have asked for that date but what the heck, it was for a special group we call family. Nevertheless, I didn’t air my feelings as it is not important anymore.
- I enjoy the littlest things in life and that includes talking to the person/s i love. Since forever, I have been talking to this special person for almost 24 hours or maybe except sleep, but I think it isn’t normal that we talk that long. I am enjoying it because of the fact I don’t need to go upstairs just to do a conversation. I hope this continues until after summer. ;)
- A short film about change through God is being cooked up by me and my friend. It is interesting though because besides the fact that it is about God (which is one of our common grounds), we get to exhibit what we want in life. I dream of many jobs including being a bagger at the grocery, or cashier, or carpenter and such, but hey, I also want to be part of a production, and if if it may allow, director or editor. Characters are almost up, pre-production now on the works.
These are random stuff that comes to my mind as I type.
